
you’ve spent a lifetime chasing paper, seeking validation
a closet full of certificates, documents, degrees and licenses
that define who you are, give you permission to practice, drive,
drink beer, shoot guns, go fishing, camp in the open, march in the street,
marry, have children, travel across borders, own houses and cars,
to show where you’re going and where you’ve been,
to prove you were born and that you exist
you bear them like a talisman, you wear them like a mask,
like armor.
you’ve spent a lifetime running just to run
from coast to coast across continents
halfway around the world and back again
climbing mountains swimming oceans flying through clouds
looking out there
for love sex magic redemption to fill that hole in your heart
it’s something that not even
sixteen shooters and a Siberian shaman
could fix.
where do you go from here?
it’s the fourth quarter, the ninth inning, the final act
match point, injury time, the shank of the evening
show down – buck-a-throw, one-eyed jacks and suicide kings are wild
no timeouts left, no do-overs, take backs or gimme puts
government, religion, politics, all the money in the world
so much smoke and mirrors
put it up on craigslist, but mention that slackers, tweakers, weasels and whiners
need not apply
you were a hamster in a wheel, a dancing bear, a bird in a gilded cage
all that chasing butterflies and rainbows, the Holy Grail and the American Dream
dialing for dollars, texting your vote and extolling the virtues
of sex and drugs and rock&roll, all that’s over
ring the mission bell, saddle the painted pinto, thank the radiant angels
send a letter to the poohbah, but you know what he’ll say
the answer you’ve been seeking
has been right here
all along